It's in your heart. It's in your art, your beauty.

It's been a while (I must have hundreds of entries that start out sounding like that). Don't really know what to say for myself. I'm living a real black and white life right now. I'm so completely happy and entirely unsatisfied all at the same time. I want to improve my situation, but as usual, I can't find the motivation for it. Perfect. However, I've met someone who continues to surprise and delight me. I feel like I can honestly say that I haven't been this content in a relationship in a while. I feel like these shoes are really comfortable. I'm not looking far enough into the future to worry myself over anything. It's just so pleasant to have someone to share with. There is absolutely no rush with this, which is so comforting.

And through the whirlwind of this unexpected gift, I'm allowing myself to be so distracted from what I'm really supposed to be doing this fall/winter. Scholarships, grants, funding. So much 'homework', and none of it as fun or as satisfying as spending an evening with him. However, I'd much rather be in Boston than anything else. I always need to remember that. Always.

As soon as I get a work schedule mapped out I feel like I'll have a better understanding of what my free time will look like. Right now, I'm just making it up as I go along, which leaves no room for research. Bad idea.

Focus.