Jesus.

Megan is getting distracted again.

I saw Townie Crush #1 today and with all that's happened in meeting the guys at Alicci's I'm getting overwhelmed. And I really shouldn't be.

I need to be focusing on art and being creative and finishing projects. It has to get done. It just has to or else I'll be so upset with myself. I know I'm human and we all make mistakes but I really have to stop making excuses for myself.

Rich was an excuse. And the more I hear about who he is, not from him, the more I know I can let go of that excuse. Sex is awesome, no doubt. But it's far to distracting because I am the kind of person that has a hard time not getting or being attached.

Even if 'Jesus' was being more than just friendly, I'm not so sure I should go for it. Not until I'm done with all the things I really want to do, when this school application thing is behind me. That way it will just be bonus. God, I know I'm just flattering myself here thinking this guy has any interest. But keeping my head clear is my number one concern and I know I need to look out for myself, from myself.

Also, I can totally see this 'Taking Woodstock' thing as another distraction. As well as Kings of Leon. I'm such an easy target for myself. Enough bullshit. Really now.